Am I not willing to be honest with myself.


I'm surprised that you selected "No".  But I appreciate your honesty.  The voices in your head must have been relentless:

"I don't have time for this foolishness."

"This is a stupid web site."

"This guy has a religious agenda."

"He's probably just trying to sell something."

Of course, the "big questions" may remain ... or perhaps you already have answers that satisfy you for the time being.  I don't know, and perhaps you don't know either.

And there is always the possibility that you will reconsider some time in the future, along with the uncertainty of just how much future you have left.